Unleashing my spirit; a creative side that many think is not creative but is to me

So last night I was watching Ghost Hunters, which is one of the best shows in the world. The episodes I had on DVR were awesome episodes which contained many different paranormal experiences. Normally with Ghost Hunters, they debunk everything that goes on instead of making up a bunch of bullshit like other paranormal shows do. Therefore, sometimes the episodes are really boring because they don't have any experiences. So last night during one of the episodes, they were in a small museum in Buffalo (I forgot the name) which was previously a funeral home. Now, every time TAPS (the name of the association) goes into any type of place to find any paranormal activity, they have the owner lock the door to make sure no one can get into the place and screw with the investigation. Now the owner of this place did as instructed, and she had locked the front door as she was leaving. Two of the female investigators who were in the hallway were looking at things (since it is a museum) and began to do a personal interview. As the investigator was talking, the front door opened and closed. The ran over to the door and opened it with no problem. During a replay of her little interview, you actually see the door open and then close. Now how is that possible when the door was locked by the owner? It was actually really creepy. Then during the same episode in the museum, two of the male investigators found a ladder and a small hole in the ceiling which led up to the attic. As the were investigating his room, they heard footsteps up in the attic which were actually really clear and very creepy. So one of the guys goes up the ladder and sees a shadow near the small window in the attic. The shadow then charged forward (unfortunately it was not caught on tape). He then ducked down and the other investigator went up. He also saw this figure. For video they then sent another male up and they concluded that their is no way anyone could be walking because the floor only consisted of beams. The investigator, walking across the beams, tried getting the spirit to make nosies again but nothing happened. He then started cursing and yelling at the spirit to try and get it angry enough to do something but nothing happened. During this whole session, he was recording EVP's. EVP stands for Electronic Voice Phenomenon which captures voices of spirits. Later while they were looking at evidence it was found that during this session, a voice said clearly "Leave me alone." This gaves me the creeps all night and got me thinking. Is their really another life after this? Are their really earthbound spirits who cannot find their way to the light? If this is all true, what do these spirit want? Why do they haunt places? It's scary to know these things exsist. Many people do not believe in this sort of thing but I know I do. I have had enough personal experiences to know that spirits do believe. I have been to the abandoned Pilgrim State Insane Asylum where I have seen dark showd move past windows. I have felt the cold wind wrap around my body during the mid of August, proving that a spirit was there, in the same room as me. Do you know how creepy that is? To know and feel someone dead in the same room or possibly right next to you? These facts scare the shit out of me but I still continue to find these spirits and experience all that I can. I know I may sound crazy (and I hope that this is wierd enough for you mike) but I believe my own house has spirits in it. One night I was asleep in my basement and I was awoke at three in the morning to my upstairs door open and slamming shut. It was freezing downstiars and this was yet again during the summer time. I then yelled to the spirits to cut the shit and they, believe it or not, ceased the slamming of the door. I know I may seem crazy but I swear it was real. Another time, I actually wanted to conduct a seance at mount misery to find out what spirits lurked there and my psychic aunt (she's really psychic believe it or not) called me screaming at me telling me not to mess with that shit because it can do much harm. She said it would open up another world, one to which causes harm and realeases harmful spirits. She told me they could possibly harm my family or even me and that I "better not f**k with that shit." It's obvious that I refused to want to listen to her so one morning, the morning that I planned to conduct the seance that night, I was getting ready for school and all of a sudden my perfume bottle randomly fell off my counter and smashed into a ton of pieces. I knew at that point it was a warning and that my aunt was right. It's kind of scary to have that stuff happen to you. Call me crazy but I believe in it all and love the thrill to be scared shitless. I actually have to make a trip to mount misery, kp, and even pilgrim sometime soon to see if I can find anymore. At one point in my life, one of my goals is maybe to investigate with TAPS atleast once. It would just be so incrediably cool to do that. Well now that I've unleashed some thoughts hidden deep down inside me, you can maybe see the truth about me and something i love to do. This is a real part of me that I do consider to be real and creative.