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The Naked Truth

I am going out on a limb here
This is something I never do
I figured i'd be creative
and write a poem about it too

as i stood in front of the mirror
what did i see?
little and behold
I saw the naked me

I see my stomach
and how I am starting to slim down
i see the old nailpolish on my toes
as i looked down

I see the stretch marks
the cellulite too
i'm using different creams
for this i want to lose

I see some curves
some love handles too
i got to stop eating those cupcakes
to get rid of those too

i see my tattoo
which is still pretty new
i see the beauty marks
all over me too

I don't like how i look
i miss how i used to be
but in a few months
i'm pretty sure i will see
will see the person who i used to be
will slim down and look really great.
really great you'll see
just give it time
and yes my poetry does suck
but at least i'm trying!

Rantomania

I fucking hate my boyfriends parents. They are such assholes. To start, they hate me because they think i'm this big whore and that my parents are bad parents because I get to stay out lateand don't have a curfew? I'm sorry if i turned 18, but it's funny because i rarely ever go out.All me and my boyfriend do is stay in and relax since we both worked a lot and even now i fucking work all the damn time. After all I did for the bitch of a mother she is I hate her. She supposedly has cancer so when she wasn't feeling well i'd bake her homemade oatmeal cookies(her favorite) and bake his family cupcakes and all the happy go lucky bullshit.But no,she doesn't appreaciate any of that.She has the balls to sit there and down me and try to make me looklike an asshole when shes a fucking drama queen. She lays in bed and cries all the time because she keeps saying shes dying.But when the doctor turned around and said that the cancer was almost gone because her meds melted them away and it would be gone in a few weeks she was happy go lucky mom of the fucking year. She was able to get up and do stuff around the house and cook and she was especially nice to john(my boyfriend). Now that she found out she had an allergic reaction to the meds, she's all "oh i'm dying, i can't move or do anything. my legs are shot and I can't even get up to go use the bathroom" What a fucking act. She is just such a fucking drama queen and i'm sick of her.All she does is put john down on how much he is a bad person and a fuck up when that is not the case at all.She's a fucking failure because she is so dramatic about her illness and she is such a bitch. And his father, don't even get me started. He's a mailman and thinks he is the smartest person alive. Wow Fucking asshole. You don't know shit. You can go fuck yourself because your an asshole. He has the nerve to call my house and bitch to my mom and make fun of us because i went to fucking island trees high school and plainedge has a vendetta against us.HELLO GROW THE FUCK UP! seriously.He's an asshole.
And you know what i hate most? The mothers from levittown. They are fucking bitches. They think that their shit don't stink and that they are miss wonderful with the stick uptheir asses.Fuck you you stupid bitches. If you think you are all cool and tough and shit I'd like to see you come up against me or my mother because you will so not win no matter what you do. I will shoot your ass down in a matter of seconds and knock you flat on your ass to give you a taste of fucking reality. You bitches don't deserve to be standing there without blood dripping from your disgusting faces. Just go back into your little pta mother group and all shoot eachother in the head for being so damn stupid and bitchy.
I hate all you people. so much,with such a passion. I hope you all drop dead.

The Place I love...

There is a place the I love to go to. It's mostly during the summer and it's a common place.You could go during the winter but it gets too cold. You can talk a walk down onto the sand and let your feet sink into it. The water gets cold but on a hot summer day it feels so good for it to rush up onto your feet and then pull away. The wind blows to keep you cool and you can lay out in the sun. That is probably my most favorite part. You can lay down on a blanket or towel and just let the suns hot rays beat down on your body and warm you up. You can either get a good tan or get sunburn which is never fun but oh well. You can see many different sea animals depending on where you go. Sometimes you see jelly fish, horse shoe crabs, spider crabs, crabs, muscles, starfish, and all of those types. You should beware if you see a shark because that is never good especially with people in the water.Aside from that, it's a great place to go with friends and even family.You can grab your friends, hop in the car, pay like ten dollars or even get a pass, go and just hang out and relax. You can play volley ball, football, and all kinds of sport games. That always seems to make the men happy. Plus they get to look at women who are in bathing suits and vce vera for the women. That's always a fun part. The smell of the air always smells like salt and seaweed.All you can hear is the waves crashing down, people talking, ipods with music playing, and the seaguls barking. If you haven't already figured it out, my favorite place that I love to be is as the beach!

counter point

I love liars,
their games are as bad as tigers.
I hate drama.
And most of all drama queens.
I love bitches and their bullshit
I love the love shows that have girls on them who totally care
I think it's funny when they win and the person screws them over
I love brandi c, megan and lacey too
I love how they are so manipulative
and jerk people around
I love how people drink excessively
and puke their brains out
I love being mom and taking care of them
I love people who cause drama
they always make things fun
I love the feeling you get
when you get smoke in your lungs
I love the way people smoke
and i love how they think they are fine
but i'll be laughing when they are dying
I love the women in this town
who think they are the best
i love how they put me down
and follow the rest
I love how disgusting most guys can get
I love watching football
and I love watching the jets
I love when my dog throws up all of the carpet
I love when my little brother in school
becomes a target
I love to get walked all over and let people talk down on me
it's funny when they see, the real side of me.
I love fat girls who think they are hot
hey i might be chubby but i know where i stand
i love guys who lie, cheat and play
they are my favorite, maybe ill marry one someday
i love when people are cruel to animals
i love men who go hunting and kill like animals
i love spinach and all it's yummy nutrients
i love how moms make their kids eat all of it.
I love how i hate writing poetry but here i am trying
I love how i am finished and done with this writing.

I Remember....

About six years ago, she stayed home from school because she was sick. Not only was she sick but also her life long friend too. Unfortunately, her friend's illness was long term. This was extremely heartbreaking for her because her friend was like her other half. They were like peanut butter and jelly, peas and carrots; they just messed well together. Her friend was suffering from cancer of the mouth. It was very hard for her to accept this and hard for her to watch as her best friend slowly died. The worst experience she had was one day she came home from school,saw blood leading toward the bathroom. As she followed the trail into the bathroom she saw her friend leaning the tumor on the cold toilet to relieve the pain. It was the most horrifying event that anyone could have seen. It scared her to death from knowing that at any moment she could wake up and her best friend be gone. It did happen that one day. Like I said before, she stayed home from school because she was sick. Her dad put the collar and leash on her and said he was "Just taking her to get checked out and see what the doctors could do to help her." She got this funny feeling in her stomach that something drastic was about to happen but she ignored it. A few hours later, her father returned home by himself. They had to put her to sleep he said. She was suffering way too much for her to go on. In a way it was the best thing. She will never forget the memories they shared of sledding in the snow, playing in the playhouse, and being her best friend.

R.I.P. Lucky.
You were not only a wonderful dog
but also my best friend<3