So with all the work that I have done so far this semester, I have to say I think I did a pretty good job with everything. I never really was good with photography, but I really have learned a lot and think I have improved in that field. I think I did a good job capturing myself as well. In my opinion it was very difficult to reveal certain aspects of myself which is why I'm surprised I was able to do it. For instance, I was never able to really reveal to anyone about my anger issues or my fighting habits or even what is hiding deep beneath the surface. Showing that part of myself was really hard because I really don't like that side of me let alone want anyone to really know about it. I guess you can say I'm pretty ashamed of that side but being able to express it really helped me cope with it.
I have to say, writing these blogs was a stress reliever and a way that I was able to get any thoughts or emotions out knowing I really was not being judged. And if I was, I could have cared less at this point because I am more comfortable with myself after putting it all out there. The most difficult part of this was revealing the fantastic self since I don't really know how I am fantastic. I have always had a low self esteem so it was very difficult to express that side of me.
I think as time progressed, my work and writing became better and better. I learned all the features on the camera which was cool and started doing so much better with photography. It was a pain in the ass to have to constantly be writing on this thing though. When I used to use those online journals and stuff when I was younger, I'd maybe update every week or so which the entries would be longer and juicer. But I really enjoyed writing on this thing.
Therefore, in the end, if I had to grade myself, I'd give myself an A- since I worked hard trying to do everything correct, I did the assigned blog entries, and I tried new things outside of my comfort zone to bring out a creative side I never knew I had. Hopefully this is taken into consideration.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Proposition 8
It's a bunch of fucking bullshit. Okay, here's my rant on this. I was so pissed off this morning when I saw on the news that they passed proposition 8 so I figured I would be a meaty blog entry to rant more about how much our government sucks. For those of you who don't know, proposition 8 is the newly passed law in California to ban gay/lesbian marriages. Now I am TOTALLY TOTALLY TOTALLY, for gays/lesbian marriages because I know many people who happen to be gay and I respect them for it. It's their decision in life, not anyone else's decision and I think it's so fucked up on the government getting involved. These people are just the same as you and me, they just have a different sexual preference and there is NOTHING wrong with this. It is not fair that the stupid government, filled with a bunch of morons, should be able to butt in and take away their rights and their future. What makes this even worse, is now that they banned this, more and more people are going to stay locked in the closet in fear that society will reject them. This is why a good portion of teenage suicide is homosexuals; they are afraid to reveal their true selves because our pathetic society refuses to accept any difference. At that point they just let everything eat away at them inside and the next thing you know they have a fucking barrel down their throat and BAM! They are the dead.
I am so pissed off right now that the government would even think about doing this. They should fucking leave these people alone and worry about the other problems that are going on in the world. The homosexuals should be the least of their problems; it's not like they are flying planes into buildings or doing suicide bombings.
It's fucking ridiculous that they would take their rights away. The government is so pathetic and I hope karma is a bitch to them because they deserve it. When suicide rates keep getting higher and higher maybe they will sit down and think with their punny minds that hmmmm, maybe this isn't a fucking coincidence. Maybe ITS THEM who are causing homosexuals to kill themselves.
Fuck the government.
I am so pissed off right now that the government would even think about doing this. They should fucking leave these people alone and worry about the other problems that are going on in the world. The homosexuals should be the least of their problems; it's not like they are flying planes into buildings or doing suicide bombings.
It's fucking ridiculous that they would take their rights away. The government is so pathetic and I hope karma is a bitch to them because they deserve it. When suicide rates keep getting higher and higher maybe they will sit down and think with their punny minds that hmmmm, maybe this isn't a fucking coincidence. Maybe ITS THEM who are causing homosexuals to kill themselves.
Fuck the government.
Pictures
I did some pictures on photoshop. I think they came out really cool! =) I learned a few more things on there so I was able to make some awesome stuff
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Inner self
I am so awesome. I am so cool. Everyone should be so jealous of me.
Okay maybe not all that but I do have a magnificent side that not everyone can see. I am very in touch with my emotions and feelings. This also helps from doing yoga, which I love. I love how my nails are always cool and up until recent, I love how my hair looked. My hair should soon be restored to it's natural self where it was a beautiful blonde ontop and black underneath. I happen to like myself a lot more from writing this thing. So I have a higher self esteem now which shows in my magnificent self. I think I am awesome; I own at video games especially halo (or once did atleast) and guitar hero or rockband. I think I am cool because I'm probably one of the few girls who actually can play. Same thing goes with cars, I'm probably one of the few girls who knows anything about them. Therefore, I am so cool =).
On that note I took a few yoga pose pictures which is what I do after doing a yoga exercise to calm myself and be in harmony and peace with myself:
The first one is the no fear pose which is self explanitory. The second one is a symbol of energy so it hits every points of your body including your fingertips and relaxs you to release any excess energy. I feel mostly harmonized when I do yoga because you control everything with your own breath and also the movements around you that you make are more or less a feel for the world. It brings you closer to your feelings inside and also to the world around you which is like the sisters explained about meditation on the retreat. I do actually feel beautiful when I do this as well because I feel like I am losing weight and also becomming more flexible. I feel so good after I do this either every morning or later at night.
So that's it for my inner self. I wouldn't know what else to say because I don't think there is anything else about me to say. I've poured my heart and soul out. =)
Okay maybe not all that but I do have a magnificent side that not everyone can see. I am very in touch with my emotions and feelings. This also helps from doing yoga, which I love. I love how my nails are always cool and up until recent, I love how my hair looked. My hair should soon be restored to it's natural self where it was a beautiful blonde ontop and black underneath. I happen to like myself a lot more from writing this thing. So I have a higher self esteem now which shows in my magnificent self. I think I am awesome; I own at video games especially halo (or once did atleast) and guitar hero or rockband. I think I am cool because I'm probably one of the few girls who actually can play. Same thing goes with cars, I'm probably one of the few girls who knows anything about them. Therefore, I am so cool =).
On that note I took a few yoga pose pictures which is what I do after doing a yoga exercise to calm myself and be in harmony and peace with myself:
The first one is the no fear pose which is self explanitory. The second one is a symbol of energy so it hits every points of your body including your fingertips and relaxs you to release any excess energy. I feel mostly harmonized when I do yoga because you control everything with your own breath and also the movements around you that you make are more or less a feel for the world. It brings you closer to your feelings inside and also to the world around you which is like the sisters explained about meditation on the retreat. I do actually feel beautiful when I do this as well because I feel like I am losing weight and also becomming more flexible. I feel so good after I do this either every morning or later at night.
So that's it for my inner self. I wouldn't know what else to say because I don't think there is anything else about me to say. I've poured my heart and soul out. =)
Obama elected president...
Oh boyy. We are in for something new, let me tell you. And no it's not because he's black and all that crap. It's because he's so inexperienced and probably won't be able to help the country out any bit. There are so many problems right now in this country and I really don't think he is going to be able to handle. I'm very disappointed with this entire election. Despite how old McCaine was I think we could benifit from his knowledge and experience and we may have even had a way to get out of this before hitting another depression. But now we are absolutely fucked.
I am happy we made history with the first black president being elected but why him? Why couldn't another guy be elected who was black. We are so screwed.
AND BTW, Anyone who thinks my opinion doesn't matter because I didn't vote can go to hell. My opinion IS vaild and just because i didn't want to be the cause of American blowing up with these idiots in office doesn't mean that it doesn't matter. Did you see what happened in New Mexico? THEY WENT AGAINST THEIR POPULAR VOTE. Hmmmm I think that's one reason I stated yesterday about why I don't vote. Our votes are bullshit and don't count. It's what the politicians want. Like I keep saying, our votes are just a suggestion because us as Americans are so unsophisticated unlike these genuis politicans. Hm, they are so smart and do so good for the country,like putting Bush in office for example. Look how well that one went: we are in a war where we can't get out of/should not have started in the first place, we are about to hit another depression because the economy is messed up. I think the only good that came out of it was the gas prices lowered. Hm but I wonder why they sky rocketed the first place. Hmmmm. What a genuis to have put in office.
I honestly am praying to god that Obama will end up being smart and change my opinion about him. And I NEVER pray so hopefully it will work. I really don't want to see the country plumet and really hit rock bottom. I also don't want to see taxes raised otherwise a lot of people are going to be screwed in New York and probably not be able to afford living here. God help us.
I am happy we made history with the first black president being elected but why him? Why couldn't another guy be elected who was black. We are so screwed.
AND BTW, Anyone who thinks my opinion doesn't matter because I didn't vote can go to hell. My opinion IS vaild and just because i didn't want to be the cause of American blowing up with these idiots in office doesn't mean that it doesn't matter. Did you see what happened in New Mexico? THEY WENT AGAINST THEIR POPULAR VOTE. Hmmmm I think that's one reason I stated yesterday about why I don't vote. Our votes are bullshit and don't count. It's what the politicians want. Like I keep saying, our votes are just a suggestion because us as Americans are so unsophisticated unlike these genuis politicans. Hm, they are so smart and do so good for the country,like putting Bush in office for example. Look how well that one went: we are in a war where we can't get out of/should not have started in the first place, we are about to hit another depression because the economy is messed up. I think the only good that came out of it was the gas prices lowered. Hm but I wonder why they sky rocketed the first place. Hmmmm. What a genuis to have put in office.
I honestly am praying to god that Obama will end up being smart and change my opinion about him. And I NEVER pray so hopefully it will work. I really don't want to see the country plumet and really hit rock bottom. I also don't want to see taxes raised otherwise a lot of people are going to be screwed in New York and probably not be able to afford living here. God help us.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Not voting Today!
Okay so today is Election day and I REFUSE to vote. I figured I'd rant about why I don't want to vote.
First off, I don't believe my vote is ever going to count no matter what. The electoral college is a joke and everyone says it's good we have it because "Americans would make a disaster of our country if we didn't have it." BULLSHIT. The electoral college is filled with normal guys like everyone else in this country picking the next president. These guys sleep, eat, drink, and do everything else that everyone else does but somehow they are magically different from everyone else and they have these magically powers and are so god damn sophisticated which makes them able to put their votes towards the president. (Run on sentence, I know). Hello does anyone else see what the hell is going on here? This is absolutely ridiculous. These people think they are better than everyone else which is why they have the power to pick where their votes go. Our votes don't mean shit. The votes are basically something the people running the electoral college take into consideration; they are just suggestions. Our government is so fucked up it's not even funny. Ironically, everyone is going into a panic because the economy is bad. What about everything else that has gone wrong? and everyone is worried about the fucking economy? What about the war going on in Iraq? At one point people were so concerned but now no one gives a shit. Did they ever think of this: That if this war escalates into something worse we may not even have a fucking country to have an economy? Do you think maybe just maybe, terrorism is going to get worse where nukes can get involved and then blow everyone to hell?
Hmmmmm...our economy is not the only thing that's fucked.
Anyways, as I got off topic, Another reason why I refuse to vote is look at the idiots running for president. You might as well just keep Bush in administration while you are at it. On one side you have old guy who looks like he's about to drop dead any second with a crazy, psychotic female running for vp who thinks she has international experience because she can see Russia from her window. On the other side, you have Obama running which oh god, don't get me started. I'll tell you a funny story with this one: I was going to Bayville firehouse for the haunted attraction there and everyone has to park their car in a lot and get on a school bus to go to the actual place. On the way back to the cars afterwards, we were all sitting on the bus and all of a sudden this woman of spanish decent gets up and yells "Vote Obama!!! Black is back!!!" I was like "You have to be fucking serious right?" Many people were only voting him because of his race, not because of his experience of anything like that but because he himself is part black. Are people that pathetic to think because he's black that all of a sudden the african american race is going to rule the fucking world?Now I don't mean to offend anyone but look whose being fucking racist. Everyone considers racism to be white people saying shit about black/hispanic or asians but what about when black people talk shit about white people? Does that not count at all towards anything? Hence why I think this whole election was fucking stupid, people were voting for the wrong god damn reasons, what idiots.
The last reason I didn't vote, POLITICIANS LIE ABOUT EVERY GOD DAMN THING.
Okay, enough ranting, I am going to go clean to keep myself occupied for the day. The only good thing out of this election was the day off =)
First off, I don't believe my vote is ever going to count no matter what. The electoral college is a joke and everyone says it's good we have it because "Americans would make a disaster of our country if we didn't have it." BULLSHIT. The electoral college is filled with normal guys like everyone else in this country picking the next president. These guys sleep, eat, drink, and do everything else that everyone else does but somehow they are magically different from everyone else and they have these magically powers and are so god damn sophisticated which makes them able to put their votes towards the president. (Run on sentence, I know). Hello does anyone else see what the hell is going on here? This is absolutely ridiculous. These people think they are better than everyone else which is why they have the power to pick where their votes go. Our votes don't mean shit. The votes are basically something the people running the electoral college take into consideration; they are just suggestions. Our government is so fucked up it's not even funny. Ironically, everyone is going into a panic because the economy is bad. What about everything else that has gone wrong? and everyone is worried about the fucking economy? What about the war going on in Iraq? At one point people were so concerned but now no one gives a shit. Did they ever think of this: That if this war escalates into something worse we may not even have a fucking country to have an economy? Do you think maybe just maybe, terrorism is going to get worse where nukes can get involved and then blow everyone to hell?
Hmmmmm...our economy is not the only thing that's fucked.
Anyways, as I got off topic, Another reason why I refuse to vote is look at the idiots running for president. You might as well just keep Bush in administration while you are at it. On one side you have old guy who looks like he's about to drop dead any second with a crazy, psychotic female running for vp who thinks she has international experience because she can see Russia from her window. On the other side, you have Obama running which oh god, don't get me started. I'll tell you a funny story with this one: I was going to Bayville firehouse for the haunted attraction there and everyone has to park their car in a lot and get on a school bus to go to the actual place. On the way back to the cars afterwards, we were all sitting on the bus and all of a sudden this woman of spanish decent gets up and yells "Vote Obama!!! Black is back!!!" I was like "You have to be fucking serious right?" Many people were only voting him because of his race, not because of his experience of anything like that but because he himself is part black. Are people that pathetic to think because he's black that all of a sudden the african american race is going to rule the fucking world?Now I don't mean to offend anyone but look whose being fucking racist. Everyone considers racism to be white people saying shit about black/hispanic or asians but what about when black people talk shit about white people? Does that not count at all towards anything? Hence why I think this whole election was fucking stupid, people were voting for the wrong god damn reasons, what idiots.
The last reason I didn't vote, POLITICIANS LIE ABOUT EVERY GOD DAMN THING.
Okay, enough ranting, I am going to go clean to keep myself occupied for the day. The only good thing out of this election was the day off =)
Monday, November 3, 2008
Pictures from the retreat
So these were all the pictures from the retreat. My favorite ones have to be the fifth, sixth, and seventh pictures. I think they came out amazing and I am so proud of myself to have taken them.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Retreat
Okay so the retreat was more than amazing. I have never had so much fun in my entire life. It felt so good to get away from everything and everyone here on long island.
To start off, the car ride up there was awesome. Megan and I ended up getting lost and ending up somewhere in New Jersey. We passed the weirdest town names lik e"Ho Ho Kus" and "Muwhaha" It was hysterical. Upon arriving we settled into the rooms and then went and played some basketball, which i am horrible at. Then we went for a short walk to the pond that was there and then down to the garden with Sister Margarette. Finally everyone arrived and we started the activities from there.
I really have to say, the fire we had later that night was really awesome. I really liked the little prayer bags that we threw into the flames. Everyone that was there really made it awesome, whether it was mike falling and crushing the marshmellows or Aisha scaring everyone half to death. I really liked talking to everyone there and getting to know people more like Jill. We had a lot of fun just talking and hanging out. I also liked how we had to put our cell phones in the basket. It kind of took my mind off the outside world thatwe could not communicate to. That is something I needed very badly so I'm glad they did it.
I was really upset when it was time to leave. Every activity and thing we did up there really made me realize a lot. I realized that I tend to take everything for granted. I learned that I am pretty good at meditating for a long period of time =)! I also learned how good it felt to get away from life for a while. I also never realized how beautiful nature or even New York really was until we were up there. The trees were magnificant and all of the leaves were so colorful and bright; the nature scene was something I fell in love with.
The experience up there was something I will never forget. I am so glad i decided to go on the retreat and I feel bad for the people who were unable to experience this with the rest of the class.
I'll probably post all the pictures tomorrow since I have so many.
To start off, the car ride up there was awesome. Megan and I ended up getting lost and ending up somewhere in New Jersey. We passed the weirdest town names lik e"Ho Ho Kus" and "Muwhaha" It was hysterical. Upon arriving we settled into the rooms and then went and played some basketball, which i am horrible at. Then we went for a short walk to the pond that was there and then down to the garden with Sister Margarette. Finally everyone arrived and we started the activities from there.
I really have to say, the fire we had later that night was really awesome. I really liked the little prayer bags that we threw into the flames. Everyone that was there really made it awesome, whether it was mike falling and crushing the marshmellows or Aisha scaring everyone half to death. I really liked talking to everyone there and getting to know people more like Jill. We had a lot of fun just talking and hanging out. I also liked how we had to put our cell phones in the basket. It kind of took my mind off the outside world thatwe could not communicate to. That is something I needed very badly so I'm glad they did it.
I was really upset when it was time to leave. Every activity and thing we did up there really made me realize a lot. I realized that I tend to take everything for granted. I learned that I am pretty good at meditating for a long period of time =)! I also learned how good it felt to get away from life for a while. I also never realized how beautiful nature or even New York really was until we were up there. The trees were magnificant and all of the leaves were so colorful and bright; the nature scene was something I fell in love with.
The experience up there was something I will never forget. I am so glad i decided to go on the retreat and I feel bad for the people who were unable to experience this with the rest of the class.
I'll probably post all the pictures tomorrow since I have so many.
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